Friday, February 7, 2014

Come 2 my birfday party tomorrow night!!!

I know I always tell y'all this stuff last minute but it's better late than never, right? ;)

And if you can't make it, you could always send your love via a gift from my amazon wish list!  Ya know, bro? ^_^

Tuesday, April 23, 2013

I fucked up a little. :(

Winding down for the night as if I haven’t been “down” since Saturday night.  I hoping that going to bed early tonight will finally leave me more clear headed tomorrow.  Saturday night I strayed from my healthy candida cleanse/diet to drink.  I wasn’t planning on drinking more than 2 glasses of wine but the night ended up being completely fucked up and drinking was honestly my only escape.  It happens.  However the way I’ve been feeling since Sunday morning has been more than enough proof for my brain that drinking is no longer for me.  I was completely trashed at the end of the night & I walked home in the cold wearing only a hoodie like a dumb ass.  I bet I burned a ton of calories freezing my ass off though?  Like, literally?  You’d think so but…. No, instead I caught a slight cold that I’m still fighting off.  I will NOT give in!

Sunday I weighed myself and I was back up to 144lbs from 139lbs.  This is not only just a bummer to me.  It’s actually devastating because I’ve been working so hard to lose weight.  I dunno if you keep up with me on all my shit like twitter, instagram, tumblr &/or Facebook but I had been working out nearly every day last week.  I skipped Sunday and now of course, I’ll be skipping today because it’s nearly midnight & I think I’ll be better off getting to bed asap and getting an early jump on life again tomorrow.  I’ve gotten off track. 

Not only with drinking and skipping workouts but I’ve also been eating way too much.  I haven’t been eating anything “bad” (or anything not allowed on my candida cleanse) necessarily but I’ve definitely just been gorging myself since I saw the scale on Sunday.  When shit happens to discourage me I tend to self-sabotage to the max.  It could be worse.  I could be stuffing my face with delicious cake or yummy pizza but instead I’m stuffing it with vegetable matter.  It’s funny how even though it sucks that I’ve been overeating since Sunday, I’m actually just proud that I haven’t been stuffing my face with bullshit.  That shows that these changes I’ve been making in my eating habits are starting to set in permanently.  

Anyhow, so I basically just wanted to give you guys the bad news that I’ve backtracked.  I have no clue how much I weigh right now because I’ve avoided the scale for 2 days but I’m guessing it’s around 145 from the over eating of the veggies, salt abuse (I need to just throw out all the salt in my apartment because I’m clearly addicted), still retaining water from dehydrating myself with alcohol on Saturday & lack of commitment to working out since Sunday.  Sadly, there won’t be any new sexy shit like I originally planned on making this week for y’all.  Hopefully we’ll be straight & back on track by Sunday though.  Next week?  Keep up with me on tumblr, twitter, Facebook & tumblr & keep on encouraging me please!  I’m sorry about the delay.  I thought we had it there for a minute but I slipped and kinda sent myself down a quick route of self-destruction.  I hope to be back to my usually (at least lately) positive, productive and HEALTHY self tomorrow! :) 

Sunday, April 7, 2013

Look what I done did!!! :D #WeightLoss

I broke my plateau! Lookie!!!  I'm only 6lbs away from starting to make super awesome new content again!!!  Also I'm only 11lbs away from going back to stripping 2x a week!  I dunno where I'm gonna work yet so don't ask...  I'm a little reluctant to go back to Scores.  I've kinda made an ass out of myself there & I'm not sure they'll take me back but I hope they do?  That's really the only place in town I'd feel comfortable working.

Anyhow...  I'm really excited my Candida cleanse seems to be working so far! :D  Since I started on January 25th I have lost 15lbs in all!  It's been slow but I'm really proud of my progress so far & I hope y'all are too! :)

If you wanna send me a little something to congratulate me on my 1st 15lbs lost that would be swell!

Only 26 more pounds to lose!  I'm working really hard you guys!!!  :)  Here's a picture I took with my phone so show off my recent weight loss!

Sunday, March 31, 2013

Weight Loss Progress Stuff

So I guess it's time to talk about my weight loss progress. Womp, womp... About 3 weeks ago I was down to 148 from 161lbs. That was a really huge accomplishment for me! However about a week and a half ago I suddenly went from 148 up to 151. I was extremely upset because I had been working so damned hard to be down to 148 (as you've probably noticed from my facebook/twitter updates) so gaining back 3 lbs after I hadn't done anything to warrant that really sabotaged my confidence. So for about the last week and a half I've almost completely given up on my diet that had been working for me and I just checked the scale and I'm back up to 155lbs because of my stupid negative actions. :(

I am planning on starting the Candida diet/cleanse tomorrow though. This is almost how I was eating when I first started my cleanse about a month ago so it won't be the hardest thing in the world but it is super strict. On my other cleanse I could have dark chocolate & wine sometimes. I won't be able to drink any wine while I'm on the candida program or have any sweets or even fruit! I plan on doing this for at least a full month if not 2 months. I'm excited to be starting this on the 1st of April because I'll be able to measure my progress easier that way and see how long I have still to go...

The reason I want to do the candida cleanse specifically is due to the crazy sugar & alcohol cravings I had while doing the Detox 4 Women cleanse this last month. After reading some info I am convinced that I may have had a candida problem since I was a little kid. I was pumped full of antibiotics during my whole childhood to the point of them basically not really working for me today. When I get sick I'm just fucked because antibiotics don't work for me. I have to get the strongest kind my doctor can offer and then they make me so ill it makes it hardly even worth it. So yeah, I'm hoping this cleanse helps with stuff like that as well as my fatigue and depression. I've had some serious issues with fatigue this last week since I started eating sugary things again and I think it might have something to do with bringing back some of the candida that my body was trying to starve off with the Detox 4 Cleanse. All signs point to Candida. Even my adviser at thinks that I have a candida problem that might be keeping me from absorbing the vitamins I take from them.

If you're interested in learning more about this strict diet/cleanse please check this link out:

Okay I'll leave y'all with a few phone pictures I took of myself when I was at 148lbs. Now that I'm back up to 155lbs I have 15 lbs to lose before I reach 140lbs when I'll be making content again so if you want more content ASAP PLEASE help me with my goals!