Wednesday, September 30, 2009
Tuesday, September 29, 2009
Monday, September 28, 2009
Growing Old.
It's a habit that every year when I can start to feel Fall fall that I go a little insane. I have a nasty inner being that likes to play trick or treat when the wind picks up and the temperatures start to dip low.
I was just out walking the dog and I felt it. The breeze of mental instability passing through my barely held together bones. This amazingly cool feeling makes me want to drop all responsibility and treat myself as harshly as I can take. But I like it? I can smell it like burning leaves in the air and it comes always on time every year. Somehow I always forget because it seems that by now at the end of summer I HAD my shit together finally and then little demons make me slowly slip until it hits. Autumn is equally as exhilarating as it is terrifying to me.
As hard as it might be to believe I have been working very hard lately to keep my ducks in a row. For those of you that have known me for the long haul you know how hard that can be for me. Especially now that the Fall is here and all I crave are dark beers and drinks of Washington Apples. They remind me of the old days when everything was based around carelessness and illegal substances... Sometimes legal, but not for me.
It's true that I miss those days, sure. But I strive to move ahead even when I don't know where it is that I am going. When I feel lost I let lust guide me. Lately it hasn't so much been the lust for the flesh as it has been before, but more for comfort and yet I just can't seem to get comfortable. I'd almost rather lose myself in nights of not remembering who I said I was or whom I was pretending to be. No, I can't do that now because I have gone so far just to finally pull it all tight and everyone around me is so much more grown up and they fly “by the book”. They would be ashamed of me.
I'm supposed to be becoming more responsible and I am but I am NOT ok with it. I'm boring. I buy my jeans at fucking American Eagle. I try to not leave my house unless my life depends on it. I decorate. I watch TV. I drink cheap well drinks now. I don't cheat. I browse dating sites. I check out your ass. I feel bad when I can't keep up. I cry when I disappoint myself. I don't identify with you anymore. I buy fancy dresses that I never wear. I make plans that I try to keep. I'm boring. I just don't live anymore.
I was just out walking the dog and I felt it. The breeze of mental instability passing through my barely held together bones. This amazingly cool feeling makes me want to drop all responsibility and treat myself as harshly as I can take. But I like it? I can smell it like burning leaves in the air and it comes always on time every year. Somehow I always forget because it seems that by now at the end of summer I HAD my shit together finally and then little demons make me slowly slip until it hits. Autumn is equally as exhilarating as it is terrifying to me.
As hard as it might be to believe I have been working very hard lately to keep my ducks in a row. For those of you that have known me for the long haul you know how hard that can be for me. Especially now that the Fall is here and all I crave are dark beers and drinks of Washington Apples. They remind me of the old days when everything was based around carelessness and illegal substances... Sometimes legal, but not for me.
It's true that I miss those days, sure. But I strive to move ahead even when I don't know where it is that I am going. When I feel lost I let lust guide me. Lately it hasn't so much been the lust for the flesh as it has been before, but more for comfort and yet I just can't seem to get comfortable. I'd almost rather lose myself in nights of not remembering who I said I was or whom I was pretending to be. No, I can't do that now because I have gone so far just to finally pull it all tight and everyone around me is so much more grown up and they fly “by the book”. They would be ashamed of me.
I'm supposed to be becoming more responsible and I am but I am NOT ok with it. I'm boring. I buy my jeans at fucking American Eagle. I try to not leave my house unless my life depends on it. I decorate. I watch TV. I drink cheap well drinks now. I don't cheat. I browse dating sites. I check out your ass. I feel bad when I can't keep up. I cry when I disappoint myself. I don't identify with you anymore. I buy fancy dresses that I never wear. I make plans that I try to keep. I'm boring. I just don't live anymore.
Sunday, September 27, 2009
Are you stalking me?
- 04:11 I'm editing a video to update undressjess.com with tonight and I'm gonna put this awesome new belly dance superstars video on the tv. #
- 05:35 I'm gonna walk the dog now. I'm only slightly lonely but I really don't want to go wasting my money at the bar for human interaction. #
- 07:03 I just got done editing two videos and updating undressjess.com with them! Go check them out! Time for icecream and TV! minu.me/jpt #
- 09:22 Its about time to get into bed! I have much more to catch up on tomorrow as well a brand new glass dildo fresh from my wishlist to break in! #
- 22:17 Did Stea kOut move in town or just move? I want some delivery! #
- 22:37 Ok, so who else in town will deliver me a large salad? I want one so BAD! #
- 23:01 I ordered dominos pasta in a bread bowl and chicken! Yum! It'll be here soon so I better wash my face! #
- 00:01 Domino's Choco Lava Cakes FTW! minu.me/13yl #
- 00:19 I'm slowly getting ready for tonight's show on undressjess.com at 8pm CST. Another round of Truth or Dare or another suggestion? #
- 00:21 Oh and I am going to be doing private shows tonight for 2 FULL HOURS! That's like big time for me and this is available for everyone! #
- 00:41 Hey J Scott (or anyone else)! Is this good? minu.me/13ym Can I put windows on this to run spycams? (This is a MAC question!) #
- 01:06 Ok so I am now in chat for those of you that would like to join us at the mothership! minu.me/jpt Time to break in the new glass toy! #
- 02:06 Ok guys I'm gonna be doing cheap chats for two freaking hours so you better take this chance to get one! minu.me/vqc #
- 02:37 Where the heck is everyone tonight? All week I get requests for private shows then when I am doing th em, no one comes? minu.me/13yp #
Saturday, September 26, 2009
Friday, September 25, 2009
Thursday, September 24, 2009
Are you stalking me?
- 03:09 Man! I thought Moe was gonna come over tonight:( Now I am sad cause she hasn't called me back. #
- 03:15 OMG! Someone wrapped a fucking cat and duck tape and left it to die! www.minu.me/13jm #
- 04:30 My ass looks so good in these jeans that I am going out to get some compliments from drunken hoosiers. I do this to boost my self esteem! #
- 08:37 I am fucking sexy when I want to be! www.minu.me/qn8 #
- 09:08 If you have my # call it cause I lost it. Otherwise I have a sudden urge to move to Georgia! #
- 09:21 I don't fucking like you. Why do I spend my awesome human essence calling you and wasting my fucking precious time? #
- 09:24 I broke my new cellphone over throwing it because you are a stupid ass. I want to kill myself for fucking you in the first place. Fuck me! #
- 20:46 It's hot as a bitch up in here... Silly me for turning down the air before bed last night! (And you know breaking my phone.) #
- 20:53 OMG! My huge amount of eyeshadow that I ordered from Coastal Scents got here today! I'm opening it now! #
- 20:58 I have a neighbor that is so traditional in a lot of ways and I love it. Her unc le died and she has been wearing black for several days... #
- 20:59 ...Like people did back in the day when they were mourning. I think that's so thoughtful. #
- 21:17 JZ looks like my cousin Joey... Dead up! #
- 21:18 Brightkite just fucking deleted my account on there because I am in violationg of thier TOS yet I don't see anything that I have violated? #
- 21:21 As an adult sex worker I get my accounts at various social networks closed down ALL THE TIME for NO REASON. It's total bullshit. #
- 21:25 Who's watching Oprah talk about the "N" word on her show right n ow? Right on, Oprah I agree with YOU! #
- 22:23 I think the reason my cell phone isn't working is that the battery fell out of it when I threw it, but I can't find it for the life of me. #
- 22:51 I found the cell phone battery and now I just can't get the fucking back to my phone re-attached. BAH! #
- 22:52 I'm going to play with this new eyeshadow and watch some TV while relaxing my ass off. I'm taking this week EASY! #
- 01:19 Just took my 51st mugshot! www.dailymugshot.com/main/show/25691 #
- 01:28 Someone in my b uilding is cooking with a large amount of garlic and it's making me want to die a little. #
- 01:37 I made a video "blog" (that is totally pointless other than...) to show you my new make-up from Coastal Scents! #
- 01:43 Check out my new Coastal Scents Make-Up stuff! minu.me/qn8 #
Wednesday, September 23, 2009
Are you stalking me?
- 03:36 I am got a "no show" from camz even though I didn't DO the show because my members couldn't get in and they aren't paying me to do them ... #
- 05:02 I am getting super tired all of a sudden. I have a dumb doctors appointment in the morning though and a TON of errands to run tomorrow:( #
- 07:27 Why is this person pretending to be me on twitter? www.minu.me/13eh #
- 16:32 I lot of people I know have or are getting marrind lately. It almost makes me want to plan a wedding for fun! #
- 16:39 My internet was ALL fuckered up last night do I am going to have to reset mos t of my spy cams. Did anyone else have issues with Insight ... #
- 19:52 Bah! I hate running errands. I wish I had loyal minions to do this bullshit for me. #
- 22:38 I made my grandma take me to the mall to get new jeans. It made me realize how boring I have become when I bought them from American Eagle. #
- 22:50 This bitch is the HOTNESS. bit.ly/bwqAl #
- 23:18 Yo undressjess.comers/members please read my blog I just posted. Thank you! #
- 00:03 Oh snap! Since I have the night off, I'm gonna get snuggly with the Jebbie dog and watch th e amazing "So You Think You Can Dance"! #
- 02:25 Damn it, I fucking want cable. What the fuck is this bullshit? #
Tuesday, September 22, 2009
Are you stalking me?
- 04:47 Man! I wish someone would pick up a pack of beer and head over. I want some human interaction and I don't want to go down to the bar. #
- 05:37 Walking to the bar. Why? I need PEOPLE, damn it! #
- 16:55 I know it looks like I am picking my nose but there is a super dry booger stuck up there that has been bothering me for days and it won' ... #
- 17:09 So far I really not liking this new update for twitter in Digsby... It's only showing my mentions from two days ago for one... #
- 17:12 I've decided that I am no longer going to be accepting appointments for shows via yahoo, msn, ect. for awhile. #
- 17:48 Of this woman, www.minu.me/13d5 I am a fan! #
- 17:54 So guess who got the awesomest costume bought for them off of her wishlist yesterday? ME! www.minu.me/13d6 #
- 17:59 It's thundering outside BIGTIME... and I like it! #
- 18:22 Check out my new/old hair! www.minu.me/13dc I'm little orphan annie. #
- 18:44 Up to a size D? www.minu.me/13de I'n not even pushing them fucking together! TITTIES! #
- 18:54 I'm becoming a woman! Finally I have reached puberty! www.minu.me/13dh #
- 19:21 Uh, just a heads up... My spy cams are pretty much all going off and on because there is a storm fucking up my internet connections. #
- 20:01 I'm gonna lay back down. I'll mess with fixing all of the spy cams after the clouds look like they are less likely going to fuck with them. #
- 21:30 My cleansing energy prayer flags got here today from: www.minu.me/13e0 They totally look awesome! #
- 00:42 Ignore this "post" I am just testing something :) #
- 00:47 Ok... This should be working now? #
- 00:48 Yay! It worked... Ok ignore this sillyness! I am watching The Biggest Loser and kind of sort of picking up the house... Only not really. #
- 01:17 Damn! This show The Biggest Loser is fucking SAD! I am like about to cry... #
- 01:20 If I ever have a child... I am having it at this hospital! www.minu.me/13ee (Most likely I will never have kids.) #
- 02:37 Um I may not be doing my show tonight considering camz is not really working... LAME. #
- 02:53 Camz is still not working and my show is supposed to be in 8 minutes so I am %98 percent sure that sadly there will be no show tonight:( #
Monday, September 21, 2009
Sunday, September 20, 2009
Are you stalking me?
- 06:01 I wish I could leave and get a drink but I can't leave Jeb again since he tore shit up last night while I was gone. Bring me some alcohol? #
- 08:59 I had a drink and I hate most men. They are just so fucking TRASHY. I want something good and new! #
- 23:14 OMG! THEY ARE BACK! Monchhichi for life! minurl.fr/12id #
- 23:50 My myspace IM has STILL NEVER loaded in the new digsby release, has anyone's myspace IM actually loaded in digsby yet? #
- 00:45 I wish make-up companies had affiliate programs where I could do reviews of their products or how-tos and sell them to my blog vie wers. #
- 00:52 Right now my hair looks exactly like my best friends hair looked while we were in kindergarden! I wish I hadn't been so mean to her. #
- 00:57 So is anyone up for some Truth or Dare Trivia? Damnit! I keep forgetting to buy black lights! (I'm such a consumer.) minurl.fr/jpt #
- 02:04 I'm doing shows now! Come and get one or just hang out and chat with me! minurl.fr/vqc #
- 02:36 Wow I just did like a half an hour privates show. My privates are tired! :) minurl.fr/vqc #< /li>
- 02:55 It's like I have the energy to clean my house but then I have to do a members show and after that I have no energy to. This cycle must end. #
- 02:57 Just took my 50th mugshot! www.dailymugshot.com/main/show/25691 #
Saturday, September 19, 2009
Friday, September 18, 2009
Thursday, September 17, 2009
Wednesday, September 16, 2009
Tuesday, September 15, 2009
Are you stalking me?
- 05:23 I need to check on my spy cams and then get some sleep. Today was an unproductive day of utter depression/anxiety. I have hope for tomorrow! #
- 05:29 Just to let you guys know whats up with my night vision bed cam. It'll return I'm just using a cord from it for something special for a few. #
- 05:39 I'm restarting and setting up my spy cams in the back of the house as wee speak then I am gonna walk Jeb and get to bed because... #
- 06:10 I really want to clean my house tomorrow to get my spirits up and also I have therapy at 4pm and FUCK if I NEED this session. #
- 19:05 I'm up and cooking breakfast/lunch and I hav e a therapist appointment in 2 hrs. I hate leaving my house before 8pm! #
- 19:25 This ring is super pretty... minurl.fr/10jz #
- 19:28 Wha the hell is "steampunk"? I keep seeing it as a lable everywhere! Is it the cool new thing? #
- 19:35 WANT! minurl.fr/10k1 Maybe steampunk insn't THE new thing, but I sure wouldn't mind it being MY new thing! :) #
- 19:37 "Steampunk" image 2 of the day! minurl.fr/10k2 #
- 19:45 I commented on a YouTube video -- T hat's sort of a personal question yeah? Also it's like 15.95 per month... bit.ly/1DwSC7 #
- 20:00 Steampunk image #2! minurl.fr/10k6 #
- 22:47 WTF I totally got the wrong money order. Where can you cash a western union money order and can you cash your own? #
- 23:07 I totally got some new "weave hair" today. It's shorter, red and curly. I can only go so long without having devil hair. #
- 23:31 I love how people assume if you see a mental health professional then things in your life must just be horrendous and unbearable. #
- 00:09 I am gonna pee, lay down for a second and snuggle my dog, walk him and then edit a new video for my shakinit page and THEN do my 3D show! #
- 00:26 Awesome! I finally figured out how to get the HD videos I took of the burlesque show the other day to import onto my damned pc. Go me! #
- 01:39 I don't mean to sound like a dick but I really wish my neighbor would close his fucking INSIDE door because his dog starts shit with mine. #
- 01:47 Ok so I am looking at the videos I took the other day and my computer says they are 1440 x 1080 but I thought that was like the square HD? #
- 02:38 Shouldn't 640x480 be the same ra tio as 1440x1080? So why is this 1440x1080 video showing in wide screen and not the typical standard shape? #
Monday, September 14, 2009
Are you stalking me?
- 03:26 Alright I am gonna do it. But no beer for me, just fucking rum. #
- 09:06 I is got sleepy time on the mind! WHPOOOO! #
- 13:07 Damn it! You woke me up and now I can't get back to effing sleep! #
- 13:09 This is probably the grossest "craft project idea" I have seen on Etsy thus far... minurl.fr/10bw I LOVE IT! #
- 14:16 My stomach feels really full for some reason but I haven't eaten for hours... Um, maybe it's gas? #
- 14:42 There is a super weird smell in my bedroom and it's been here al l night. I'm too lazy to try to figure out what it is though. #
- 14:57 I subscribed to uotv's channel on YouTube bit.ly/DOGtr #
- 15:20 minurl.fr/10ch I will try to make a little movie with my new camera today! #
- 15:44 Booty butt booty butt booty butt cheeks! Booty butt booty butt booty butt cheeks! #
- 15:57 I can't seem to sleep so I might as well fucking get the hell out of bed. Or not. I have to take another hour to weigh the pros and cons. #
- 16:13 "Does violence ever solve anything?" < a href="http://okcupid.com/z/hk">okcupid.com/z/hk #okcupid #
- 17:41 I should probably get around to updating my okcupid profile soon... minurl.fr/10d6 #
- 21:51 WTF Kanye West? You suck... minurl.fr/qn8 #
- 23:43 Oedipus complex? minurl.fr/10ei #
- 23:52 You know whats kind of a weird fact about me? I don't bathe very often but I am about to now so go watch me on spy cam! minurl.fr/jpt #
WTF Kanye?
I don't even like country music but that little girl was so proud of herself for winning and who the fuck are you to take that from her? Next time Kanye get out your fancy ass cell phone/laptop and blog about your fucking opinions instead of fucking up a little girl's shining moment. It's like you pissed in Cinderella's glass slippers and shat in her pumpkin carriage. UNCOUTH MY GOOD MAN!
WKRG.com News
Kanye should be banished from all award programs from here on out, or at least grounded from them for the rest of the year...
My two cents!
Kanye should be banished from all award programs from here on out, or at least grounded from them for the rest of the year...
My two cents!
Sunday, September 13, 2009
Saturday, September 12, 2009
Are you stalking me?
- 05:43 I broked my hitachi in my show tonight:( Please buy my vagina a new one? It's her favorite! minurl.fr/jur #
- 08:33 Daft Punk is playing at my house... at my house! #
- 09:02 My lady friend is at it again! Please vote for her in this weeks booty dance contest and enjoy her free video! minurl.fr/1040 #
- 20:53 I am sleepy! But I have to start getting ready for my show in an hour and then be off to see the burlesque show! #
- 21:03 Don't forget to vote for my buddies sexy contest video! minurl.fr/1040 FREE VI DEO! #
- 21:16 My face is so swollen right now that I think the skin just might snap right off at any second. #
- 22:13 I'm live in tonights show on minurl.fr/jpt but I am canceling the 2nd one I was gonna do today at 11 cause I forgot about the thing! #
Friday, September 11, 2009
Are you stalking me?
- 04:07 My stomach feels funny:( So I might go out for a beer. That is a splendid idea! #
- 05:08 WTF!?! My mom just sent fucking the shittiest pictures of me ever to fucking like everyone on the planet. I swear to fucking Christ!!!!!!! #
- 16:07 I feel like a fucking medical anomaly. I am so swollen that my face hurts from the skin being stretched over it. #
- 16:19 People were honestly getting in stupid fights over 9/11 last night at the bar. All I have to say is get over it. People die. #
- 16:26 Someone actually asked me if I form myself after "Daria" last night. Charming. #
- 16:30 RT @rj53179: @UndressJess you know, your an entertainer, no one wants to hear your idiotic comments.(This guy is classy!) #
- 16:32 RT @rj53179: He goes on to say... @UndressJess for your tits bitchtard #
- 17:34 I favorited a YouTube video -- Hymnographer Teaser Trailer 1 bit.ly/w3TQM #
- 17:34 Is "loudtwitter" dead again? I see it hasn't updated my blog ( minurl.fr/1006 ) in several days... #
- 17:52 RT @UndressJess: @rj53179 Then why are you following them? Fuck ass. (Why did you RT this?) #
- 18:18 Wow... People like this really exist! bit.ly/Xryhh #
- 18:36 I hope everyone just saw me vomit in my blue puke bucket just now. Yummy! #
- 19:00 Have you had your beef today? minurl.fr/1020 (NSFW) #
- 20:16 Oh SHIT. Twitter just sent out an email that they changed their "terms of service" (TOS). I hope this will not fuck me over. #
- 20:21 Christ by twitter new rules ANYONE could get thier account closed for "spamming". This frightens me. minurl.fr/102p #
- 20:30 Are you watching me pick my nose? minurl.fr/jpt #
- 22:21 I received part of my Hannah Montana Halloween costume in the mail via my wish list ( minurl.fr/kdm ) today! I still need the WIG! #
- 23:30 I just went outside for like 10 minutes to take pictures with my digital harinezumi camera and I got bit up like the dickens. #
- 23:48 My cat "Tink" is in heat and won't shut the fuck up. She is driving me insane. #
- 00:01 My brain and body are not feeling %100 today. I have no clue what is wrong wit h me. I mean... I should stop drinking. #
- 00:33 I have a show in a half hour on the site and I don't feel very awake at all. I need to do some jumping jacks or something:( #
- 00:46 I want to do dirty dirty dirty thing to this girl! minurl.fr/103e #
- 01:08 I'm hangin with the homies and about to play some mondo Trivia Truth or Dare on ping.fm/Dpu9C !!!! #
Tuesday, September 8, 2009
Monday, September 7, 2009
Are you stalking me?
- 03:02 Please be a love and send me an icecream sammich! Can I add those to my amazon wish list? #
- 03:43 My spy cams may die at any point now. I am pretty sure this storm is going to knock off my electricity at any given second. #
- 04:09 She looks rather hungry... minurl.fr/yq3 Eat a sammich, ho! #
- 04:30 Has anyone ever heard of taking clen/t3 for major weightloss? How did it work out for you or anyone you know that may have taken it? #
- 06:04 Awe! This really cool girl on okcupid was messaging me and wanted to get sushi and like I tried to write her back and her profile is gone! #
- 07:22 for those of you that know where i live, what are all the delivery places in the area? I am trying to make a list! #
- 08:34 Look at the hot new shirt at the $15 store! minurl.fr/yqv #
- 08:55 Hahaha! What the flying fuck!? minurl.fr/yr0 #
- 09:26 I subscribed to thession's channel on YouTube bit.ly/QWyf8 #
- 09:39 I'm going to bed soon but I will leave you with this my good little home slices! minurl.fr/yr5 #
- 09:45 I subscribed to glamazon13's channel on YouTube bit.ly/Rr8zo #
- 09:50 I favorited a YouTube video -- SSION: A WOLVES EYE (OFFICIAL MUSIC VIDEO) bit.ly/Ur7ae #
- 09:50 I favorited a YouTube video -- SSION on CHIC-A-GO-GO bit.ly/1Iquy #
- 10:09 Oh snap, these girls are tearing this dance up! minurl.fr/yr9 #
- 10:14 I subscribed to chitowngayboi's channel on YouTube bit.ly/1MULsr #
- 10:20 I favorited a YouTube video -- HOW TO DO: SSION MAKE-UP bit.ly/Gek8O #
- 10:20 I favorited a YouTube video -- SSION "WERK" bit.ly/8miKo #
- 10:33 I subscribed to paperrad's channel on YouTube bit.ly/357iny #
- 10:33 I subscribed to PlatniumBridges's channel on YouTube bit.ly/36dyFU #
- 10:33 I favorited a YouTube video -- Single Ladies( Put a Ring On It)- Beyonce bit.ly/2XRlLd #
- 10:38 I favorited a YouTube video -- paperrad dvd trailer bit.ly/G2miQ #
- 10:46 I favorited a YouTube video -- Ms LaStarya HOMETEL..HOME/HOTEL bit.ly/VQkPC #
- 10:57 I subscribed to mello69ways's channel on YouTube bit.ly/TetHu #
- 10:57 I favorited a YouTube video -- RED AND BLACK CAN U HANDLE THAT bit.ly/hUiEV #
- 11:08 I subscribed to SCcandygirls's channel on YouTube bit.ly/394Yx4 # < li>11:09 I subscribed to smootches19's channel on YouTube bit.ly/nU6gb #
- 11:27 I favorited a YouTube video -- Chris Crocker at Walmart. bit.ly/1FyZAm #
- 11:32 Are we friends on myspace? Just checking! minurl.fr/srq If NOT you you better get your ass on the ball! Tell your buds to add me too! #
- 11:50 I rated a YouTube video (5 out of 5 stars) -- Letting Go bit.ly/I2HdQ #
- 11:50 I favorited a YouTube video -- Letting Go bit.ly/I2HdQ #
- 21:51 I hate when you get fries from McDonalds and they taste like they have been fried and the fried again 5 hours later to warm them up:( #
- 22:44 Let's sexy it up this evening! minurl.fr/yuz #
- 22:53 From now on I will only date men that remind me of you and girls that resemble you. I WILL have my cake... #
- 02:26 I pretty much just woke up for the day. This is what happens when I don't have my adderal. #
- 02:44 My rude cams are gonna be down for awhile I have defrag that pc but I'm in the front of the house so you aren't missing anything back there! #
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